مِن بِلَاد الفرنجة

unleash a monster or die slowly

Quoting paperman best scene 

Richard regarded his solitude as something sacred as a well earned badge of honor, a cloak to be worn to ward off life. As his safety. Solitude is who he was. This caused those in his life to view him with a barely veiled contempt. Richard was certain tat he was not liked. Which is hard on a man. Maybe it was because he gave nothing that he received nothing in return. In any case, his situation had become intolerable. The closest things he had to friends were either imaginary or extinct. And Richard had reached a point of life where this was no longer enough. And then he met a girl… And she was warm. And she was sad. And she was maybe lonely in a way that reminded him of himself. She’d lost things that a girl should never have lost. And she knew things. And she taught him. And Richard thought: “Maybe this is what friendship feels like. Maybe.” It was just a glimpse, they’d barely begun, really. But in those long, few winter days, she’d given him so much. Enough so that Richard could go on. And what had he given her? Just a few words on a page. Not much, perhaps. But for Abby, he hoped it was enough.

Dear friend,

I dreamt of you last night.

P.S. Don’t worry, this time it was a funny one.


The space between us

Can feelings transcend into space?
Can love beat time?
Can we exist together but alone?

Today I watched the space between us and I liked it. Although I disagree with some things for being scientifically inaccurate, I can personally relate to the plot of the movie. No, I’m not Martian (but oh, boy I wish I were), but does it have to be planets? How about continents, countries, cities or streets?
I never felt I belong to this place particularly more than any pale dot stranded in the universe, yet I can’t live for a few minutes outside of its atmosphere without suffocating or maybe Anne Hathaway would save me, nobody knows. Well… till I experienced something that made me feel more human; open for being vulnerable and buoyant.
The soundtracks they used were quite catchy and the characters were well-written, despite me thinking that it could have been better if the main characters were a bit older. I also liked that they didn’t make the ending dramatic like these days films.
To choose to fall for someone who is difficult to reach is something hard to do, but to feel spacetime being bent around that special someone and you still walk into love with him with your eyes wide open, and choose to take every step along the way without letting go is something called gravity.
You can’t run from that.
And you, what’s your favorite thing about Earth?

I close my eyes and think of you.

The Raven

Outside my window, there’s a crow standing
On a balcony in the opposite building
Raising questions without a single move
Is it alive?
Is it made out of plastic or maybe concrete?
Is it a crow or a raven?
What’s the difference?
I listen closely to the bird’s calls
I hear nothing
Well, that’s always the case
But I know it says something
Something that is very true
I don’t take a picture
I don’t say goodbye
Maybe it hurts to know
If you already did
If you just said something
I could have stayed
I would have stayed
I would
Seeing another common raven
On another gardened balcony
I know it’s not a crow
I close the drapes


Night and books
Her lovely looks
Why did I leave?
I ask myself why
Was I that naive?
Dreams and goodbye
Too much drama
Look at the sky
I am here
I am coming
Trust me
It’s not a sci-fi
Or maybe
The impostor was right
Poetry? I can’t write
Or maybe
She thinks that I might
You must be kidding
Ha, not-so-bright?
Let’s fly together
I propose
So will the little prince
It’s his beloved rose
She’s just too scared
I suppose
It is terrifying
but together here it goes
Time slows
We were so close
Come on! We’re Pharaohs!
Will I stay?
Of course, she knows
What is life without curiosity?
But what was life without her?
Fool, a so-sweet fool.


Dear friend,
I have been writing a code for a project for the past month which I should hand out the day after tomorrow, yet here I am totally freaking out and probably will try to write a completely new one in few hours. I hope I don’t suck at presenting it as well, it’s about planetary motion which is my interest so I should be good at it.

Dear friend,
There is a chance to be good again. Take it and don’t leave.